On the Grief of Cancer You’ve just realized that something you can’t imagine living without is gone. Unexpectedly vanished, and you may never be able to replace it. Your heart lifts and drops at the same time. Racing and falling into a dark pit you didn’t know you had inside you. You start frantically searching. Reversing the last hours in your mind. Trying to remember when you last saw it, when it was still yours. Your world narrows until there is only it. What if I never fi